“It’s the most beautiful time of the year.” says the song.
Probably not for me. I know. I sound bitter and pessimistic. It’s just that I’m here you’re there. We’re just too far apart. Yeah. Some might say that I should be used to the distance since I never did grew up with you but still knowing that you can’t pay a visit saddens me. Minsan iniisip ko, what if what happened in the pasts didn’t happen. What if we’re all still together. Sabi nga dun sa nabasa ko, nakaraan nga yun pero malaki pa rin ang epekto sa hinaharap. I’ve been living with the what if’s all my life but I need to suck it up, deal with it and get on with my life. That’s what I am doing. I hope.
Ang dami kong sinabi, ang gusto ko lang naman sabihin sayo is that I love you. I miss you and that no one can ever replace you in me. Kahit ilang oras pa ang nasayang nila sakin, mas gusto ko pa rin yung kakaunting oras na kasama kita.
That’s it. I LOVE YOU, MOM!
Buscapades # 1.
I don’t know what is with me and buses.
I Just happen to have weird experiences. Embarassed. Harrassed. Sexually assaulted. And got my mind polluted.
There was this one afternoon, I was going home from school and shuttle vans do not have trips yet, I was forced to take a bus. I do have a couple of classmates whom I could go with but at that time, i don’t know, I just don’t want anyone to be with me. I’m feeling like I need to be alone for a while and rest while I’m actually on the road. I also know that if I ever get to be with someone that time I won’t be able to sleep cause we will be talking the whole trip so I opted to be alone and look where it got me.
So, i took a jeep from Pasong Tamo to Buendia where the bus route is. Marami ng dumaan na buses pero di ako sumasakay kasi puno na ng pasahero. It was like 2-3 in the afternoon kaya ayoko sumakay sa maraming tao. Mainit. After waiting, meron ng bus na almost empty so i boarded and took a seat by the window. Both were two seaters. I think ATSC ata yung bus. Yung padirecho sa Alabang. Basta yun. The bus was almost empty, more or less 10 passengers lang kami kaya medyo tambay lang muna yung bus waiting for possible passengers. There was this one guy who boarded mga nasa late twenties to early thirties. Umupo siya sa harap ng katapat kong upuan. I can see him. I am observant kaya I was watching him. Wala lang. Nakikita ko kasi siya but hindi yung watch na interested. Aware lang ako sa ginagawa niya. Tapos si kuya, adjust siya ng adjust ng aircon. Hindi ko naman pinapansin kasi alam ko mainit talaga pag galing ka sa labas. So yun hinayaan ko na siya. Kinuha ko yung cellphone ko then nag soundtrip. Maya maya, yung mama tumabi sakin! I was weirded out! Hello, kala ko ba naiinitan ka? Of all the seats were vacant sakin ka pa tatabi? Buti sana kung 3-seater tanggap ko pa. -.-
Pero that was all in my mind. Di ko naman pwede sabihin. “Kuya, lipat ka ng upuan. Di kita gusto katabi.” That would be rude but if I actually knew what he is going to do di ako maghehesitate na sabihin sa kanya yun. Wala pang one minute na lumipat siya sa tabi ko he took out his weenie from his pants and started jacking off.
MYGHAD. But mind you, I didin’t panic. I had been warned during high school days na may mga maeencounter talaga na ganto at pag nagpanic ka you’re giving him pleasure. So para hindi ko makita yung ginagawa niya nag-lean ako sa back ng bus sa harap ko tapos sa bintana ako tumingin. I was praying. Promise. Nag Our Father, Hail Mary tsaka Glory Be ako. Haha. Iniisip ko may gawin lang sakin to makakatikim ng suntok to na ilang taon kong pinag-aralan sa karate. Mga 30 seconds pa lang ako sa ganung posisyon naramdaman ko na may dumidiit sa legs ko. Pag tingin ko, as in EEEEEEEEEEEWWWW! Dinikit niya yung pototoy niya sakin!!! Kung di ko lang talaga ayaw gumawa ng scene tumili na ko ng sobrang lakas. Alam niyo yung pabulong na sigaw? Yun yung ginawa ko. Haha. Sabi ko, “Ang bastos mo ha!” Then boom! Sinapak ko siya. Buti di siya sumalag kasi kadiri! Hinawak niya ‘under there’ tas ihahawak niya sakin. After ko siyang sinapak, duwag naman pala. Tumakbo siya palabas ng bus. -.- My sleeping plan was ruined. As in kung pwede ko lang bayaran yung katabi kong upuan para walang uupo ginawa ko na. Sobrang napraning ako nung araw na yun.
Mga 2 weeks after bago ko nakayanang ikwento yun sa pamilya ko. Tinawanan lang ako but they gave me a pepperspray. Whoopie! Fortunately up until now di ko pa rin naman siya nagagamit and hopefuly di dadating yung time na gagamitin ko yun. Haha.